I know, everyone is shocked I am behind on posting to this blog. This post will be short and to the point. I am lost. I have been going in a 1000 directions these past few months, trying to find something that can keep my interest but nothing has. I think I have not been spending an ample amount of time doing 1 thing, thus nothing has been able to take hold, I just keep bouncing around like an idiot. I know what my passions were growing up, and I still feel a pull toward those passions so that is what I am going to actively focus on now, and hopefully re find that spark. Those interests were electronics, computers, ham radio, photography, and more computers. Building things, tinkering with things, “hacking” things. These are where I am going to focus on, and luckily my studies fit in with these goals :). They say if you let something go, and it comes back to you, then it was meant to be. When my life fell apart I let go of my passions, I still have a desire to pursue these passions, so i feel like this is where I need to go. I intend to write about everything on this blog, not daily but definitive a lot more often than a few times a year. Some will be personal, just me doing a brain dump of my thoughts and emotions. Mostly I hope they will be technical posts about projects I’m working on, code i’m writing, things relating to my motorcycle, electronics, ham radio, security and probably some stuff about photography and guns too. I hope that using this as an outlet along with a journal I intend to start keeping will help me get back on track and stop wondering around life like a lost puppy. Guess we will see what happens.
This is my first picture in my project 52 for 2014. I spent the Christmas holidays at my parents house and spent alot of great time with my family and friends. My mother is famous in her family for always keeping the house perfectly decorated and clean in each season, this is a corner of our living room. I tried to focus on the composition, the layout. I think it turned out pretty good, everything goes together nicely (which is my mothers work, I just took the picture). All comments or criticisms are welcome.
Its already December and we are preparing to say goodbye to 2013 and hello to 2014. Another semester of school is over with, the “best of” videos and compilations are being posted online. This is the time when people start to think about New Years Resolutions. I have been thinking about some for me. I have had various levels of “luck” completing my resolutions. I usually aim way to high and have to settle for only actually completing some, or I just give up all together and find some good excuse to tell myself its ok that I gave up. 2014 I am going to try and stop that streak, I have come up with some general and easy to satisfy goals for 2014. Some involve my hobbies, others involve personal growth, some will involve both. Lets talk about the hobbies first.
One of my hobbies is photography. I really enjoy the technical aspects of it, getting the exposure details correct (ISO, aperture, shutter speed) and how each of those can be changed to manipulate the image created. I love reading about new techniques and then trying them out, working with them until I understand what is happening and how it can be changed. Alot of photographers post about starting something called a “project 365″. I have tried to complete one myself several years and failed. It involves taking a picture everyday for a year (hence the 365). For 2014 I want to shoot alot more pictures. I know I will not take a picture everyday, I will not have time to really focus and plan out a shot for each day. For 2014 I am going to attempt a project 52, the name gives it away, basically I will shoot a picture each week. Some weeks I might take more, but I really want to plan out and create a great shot each week. One thing I want to get over is my self conscience ness when I am in public with my gear. I know getting out and just shooting more will help me get over that.
Another of my hobbies is ham radio. I was licensed a few years ago and really got into it more for the emergency communications aspect, I have worked countless operations during activations with RACES and ARES teams in multiple counties, working a hurricane and several severe weather (tornado and ice/snow) events. Being a geek I am also interested in the electronics and general hobby side also, building radios, antennas, receivers, and playing with all the modes. I want to get into contesting and also get into playing on the air with digital modes in the HF bands. This brings us to my 2014 resolution for ham radio, upgrade my ticket. The lower threshold for this is to upgrade from technician to general, but my real goal is to fully upgrade to extra (the highest US license available).
Now lets get to the personal growth and self improvement I talked about in the opening paragraph. I’m going to be perfectly honest with myself, I don’t have very many true friends. By true friend I mean someone who I know I can call at 3am and they will jump out of bed and be willing to help me. I need to treat these friends better. I have a very bad habit of tunnel vision. I find something that is fun or that I want to do, and I only focus on that until I get bored or burned out on it. I ignore my friends and family and just jump into what ever it is. I want to focus more on being a better friend. I really enjoy playing golf, a few of us used to play atleast once a month. We didn’t play but a few times in 2013 and I wish he had played more. I want to play more in 2014, especially since one of them is now married and his wife is talking about kids (which I know will be the end of his golfing days for a while).
Another aspect of self growth is I want to focus more on being me. This blog, my masters studies, the hobbies listed above are all part of me. I have reflected on 2013 and I feel like I have lost myself. I spent alot of time sitting around planning, dreaming about things I was going to do, things I was going to work on. These included personal projects such as programs I was going to create, electronics I was going to build, collaboration projects with others. I did a lot of dreaming and talking, but I didn’t seem to actually do any of it. I committed myself to alot of things, too many things now that I think about it, and I was pulled in too many directions to do anything except talk about it. I don’t want to do that in 2014, I want to commit to fewer things, things I really want to do, and then actually complete them. I want to write more code, I want to actually soldier some wires and actually build things that I can use and play with. I want to spend more time keeping up with the world of digital forensics and cyber security.
And finally this blog/domain. I have been paying for this domain for years and I haven’t done shit with it. That stops in 2014, I will use this blog to keep myself honest. I don’t care if no one reads this but me, this is for me. I will write about projects, programs, radios, sports, forensic techniques, and any other topic I want to write/rant about. Some will be personal (I promise this will not turn into me crying into my journal), others will be general bullshit that I just felt like commenting on. I encourage anyone to comment or interact with me, but at the same time I will not live or die by my views as I expect them to remain 0. I will be using the categories and tags on each post so the search functions should work pretty well. I am not going to promise that I will write here everyday, but I really hope to make a few posts a week. If someone is still reading this, I hope you will come back. My social media contacts are on the side, feel free to contact me using any of them.